** This report is strictly a thought-experiment.
Any similarity to what i did this morning is purely coincidental.
FIRST N-N-DMT 'Breakthrough' EXPERIENCE
Ok, wow! Got a good, solid smoked hit of DMT down my windpipes
this morning !!!
I've been waiting almost 9 years to have this experience
.. and wow!
Here's what happened.
After a couple of recent tries in which i only experienced
this morning only about 30 minutes after waking up, I loaded
all that remained of the sample of N-N-DMT in the pipe,
atop a bed of neutral ash. (an unknown amount in terms of
milligrams, but a speck of amber material about 1/3 the
size of a grain of white rice.)
I put some non-sectarian, neutral meditational music on
the stereo, turned off all the lights and sat on the floor
doing some deep breathing beforehand. I wanted to make sure
i was well-oxygenated for the journey!
When time slows WAY down it is very common to have concerns
regarding breathing, or if you are possibly 'dead'. This
is because time slows down so dramatically that it may seem
to be 'hours' in-between each individual breath or heartbeat.
however, DMT is medically regarded as an extraordinarily
safe substance, and even though it can be a scary ride mentally
... it's physically safe.
DMT is related to the near-death experience and
also to dreams.
Your brain's pineal gland produces N-N-DMT, melatonin and
5_MEO-DMT while you sleep each night. it is present in small
amounts in the bloodstream of all human beings. Medical
research indicates that at the moment of death, the melatonin
and serotonin in the brain will break-down into DMT after
oxygen stops circulating, so each of us may enter the ultimate
natural DMT trip at the moment of death.
It's one heck of a trip, one might have some fears and experience
some shock at the intensity of the effects, but nobody has
yet died of amazement & you always come back to planet Earth
in about 12 to 30 minutes.
NOTE TO READER: This was not a "fun" psychedelic
experience - not a dreamy trip to heaven, lol.
yet it was definitely medicinal & instructional in many
ways. I learned quite a few things about myself in the space
of just a few moments or even seconds.
There is no way to represent what one sees,
but the images on this post are trip-art that i had
previously saved, & I carefully chose the ones
which most closely resemble a faint suggestion
of what i 'saw' in the lux of the mind's eye.
I raised the pipe to my lips and inhaled, holding the
flame a bit away from the bowl,
being careful to let it sizzle and evaporate rather
than waste it by burning too rapidly.
0 Minutes, 3 seconds
I held in the smoke until it was all absorbed into my
body, when i exhaled no smoke came out but i caught
a glance of my cat, 2 seconds into the trip she was
already fractalizing into a Louis Wain artwork. Jeweled
& neon snake-like patterns began to slither and slide
above and under her fur.
She looked SOOO weird on the way into the trip ...
like ribbons of light twisting along her fur & following
every curve. A graceful neon bio-robot made of alien
Then i closed my eyes. inner thought
at the time "Ok, I definitely got a good hit that time!"
just about how my cat looked 3 sec. into the DMT trip,
but the vision was 100x more detailed
0 Minutes 5 seconds
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. The Music began
to swell in both volume and detail
... then it began to stretch out like silly-putty while
seeming to "fold out of itself" in sound and in 'time'.
There were dozens of violins playing fast scales on
the song and i could hear & track the most miniature
details of each one of them, all at the same time.
I could even tell which ones were played by the same
violinist in different takes & which were ensemble,
& noticed duplicate tracks that were layered in to give
the mix a deeper sound, and how much these tracks were
offset from their counterparts higher in the mix, etc,
etc. Normally this music just sounds like a huge swell
of violins playing really fast scales, but I could hear
and follow literally 600 or more "real"(not just hallucinated)
details simultaneously & this was before the
visuals really got started.
The sound then became like a swelling, storming sea
which poured over into my visual field ... I lost track
of awareness of the music at this point.
inner thought "This is really different
... whoa, uh ...OM!"
Time sank into a hole in space / space sank into a hole
0 Minutes 8 seconds
I had the sensation of dissolving of merging into another
"space" - not sinking down, or sideways, but a shift
of some kind.
Like the space around my body was melting into a 'dimensional'
hole or indentation in the fabric of 'reality',
and sorta dislocated me from the ordinary flow of time
The music and all time virtually stopped - i was in
a pocket of infinity between moments
- Patterns began to swim and swirl - rapidly coming
into clear focus.
inner thought "Okl, you've read about
this part, everything's OK, keep breathing, try to relax!"
first waves of visuals seemed to rush in from a distant
0 minutes 12 seconds
The difference between sound, thought and visuals was
now almost totally obliterated.
But there was still the regular ego along for the ride,
the sense of 'self' and the part of your mind that speaks
to itself about your experience.
But yeah ... this is truly The Unspeakable, so that
part of the mind gets a heavy dose of humble pie
& eventually shuts up if you're experienced or lucky.
I was neither experienced or lucky.
After sinking into the space/time fold, my entire visual
field (with eyes closed) was literally buzzing & gyrating
at incredible dizzying speeds with endlessly complex
vaulted hemispherical concave surfaces that were composed
of thousands of discrete elements. These elements were
like curved, flat laser beams of liquid-light with impossible
geometric objects floating in them. There were thousands
within view ... each one was a bit unique in each of
it's ten-thousand aspects.
Good representation of the peak visuals, except the
real thing is 10000x more intense
and moving at ultra-speed all around you & there is
no 'up or down' or traditional directions anymore
& everything is constantly inter-morphing through you
and itself in brilliant colors & ever-newer formations.
surfaces were moving at an extraordinary speed, faster
than any type of vision i've ever seen,
frighteningly fast like neon christmas octopus palm-trees
in a disco hurricane whiplashing about at lightning
all around you, relentlessly - not like any other
The matrix was performing every type of topological
acrobatic stunt possible,
such as turning inside out, breaking into thousands
of sub-parts and reforming as something new, hugely
synchronized cascades of knotted ropes swinging into
& thru each other and forming an new & ever-more
exquisite jeweled-webbed pattern at every intersection
... basically complete geometrical mayhem, but all without
any chaotic feel. Every movement was hyper-orchestrated
and i realized quickly that it was gracefully, painfully,
methodically, unbearably breaking every logical and
conceptual taboo in the universe.
EVERYTHING i thought was impossible was right in front
of me (& i believed that i already thought
'nothing is impossible')
So much that I became shocked that anything could be
I wished for a moment i could abort the trip and go
back to something recognizable - too much too quick!
inner thought "OK OK, that's enough ... i'd like to
stop now, can we take this in smaller steps?
hey wait, did i really want to do this? Oh Shit! Everything's
ok, take a deep Breath"
the most impossible configurations of meaning unfolded
and morphed like a tornado of converged realities
Minutes 20 seconds
Now it was clear to me; Within seconds,
just the vision of the "waiting room" of the DMT universe
had shattered all of my preconceptions about ANYTHING.
Rolled-over by a freight-train & squashed flat ... so
flat they were one dimensional.
Ontological dynamite had gone off in my brain. The only
way to describe any of this is by metaphor and analogy.
I turned my attention from the visions back to the self
and what i saw was total carnage. All around me were
the casualties strewn about from the implosion into
DMT hyperspace. The wounded preconceptions and decapitated
belief systems were in a makeshift emergency medical
triage unit inside my mind. there were parts of my subconscious
desperately scurrying around to try and patch the holes
& sew the appendages back onto my normal reality-construct.
These self-repair fragments were busy saying "oh, don't
look over here" as some of the worst victims were being
covered by sheets to shield me from even more shock
at seeing them in a destroyed, useless state.
I tried to forget about it and turned my attention back
to the outpourings from the light-speed alien novelty-circus.
Once again "I" could only interact with that which seemed
distinctly "IT" for a few seconds before succumbing
to numb-astonishment again.
inner thought "Oh shit ... that blew
it all away, what should i do now? What is now? What
is 'is'? What 'is' IS! ok .. try to not think
Coils of energy, DNA and unexplainable energy-template
things swirled around me.
This part was so hyper-detailed & realistic & distinct
& fast-paced & in-focus & unpredictably unfathomably
it's just impossible to convey in words or even images.
The behavior and motions observed in this space are
different beyond different.
Like living volcano's of information from another universe
that are spewing the raw-magma code to 'the matrix'
RIGHT IN YOUR FACE! Help!
0 Minutes 30 seconds
The story of "humpty-dumpty" became a theme -
"All the kings horses and all the kings men couldn't
put humpty-dumpty back together again"
In this case the KING being the Ego-self construct which
feels it can interpret reality into a safe & sensical
worldview. The kings men were the parts of my subconscious
that were sent into attempted-repair mode from the shock
of seeing and interacting with 'The Impossible; and
of course, the shattered egg was my primitive 3D worldview
and all of my attachments to anything related to ordinary
mundane 3D 'Earthly' experience.
All of that goes out the door in DMT space, nothing
you have ever learned is of ANY USE Whatsoever.
You are like a totally helpless newborn baby opening
it's eyes for the first time in a mix of awe, shock,
joy, fear and disorientation.
inner thought "I've been knocked back
into my subconscious... damn, what just happened? ok
.. keep breathing, try to let go'
? minute ? seconds
No sense of objective time whatsoever .. just being
I take a deep breath and i can totally feel that my
body is mostly made of liquid, and that liquid is mostly
made of atoms swirling around in empty space. My lungs
and skin feel like softly textured sponges, exchanging
liquid & gasses as part of the system of the environment.
I notice the colors react to the fresh oxygen entering
my brain. I become temporarily absorbed in noticing
the transparent sensation of my body, i'd swear i can
feel light passing thru it.
Suddenly i realize the rising peak has hit a plateau
and that the vision of hyperspace is not as intense.
A series of images flash thru my mind to anchor some
of the more outlandish visions into short-term memory.
Noticed a bit of nausea and made note of where the trash
can was. Then I sort of went thru the whole thing again
but with less intensity, remembering the encounter with
the 'impossible unknowable' & getting shattered to bits
and watching the mind try to make sense of things. This
time around it was more clear that the only destruction
was self-caused, by trying to squeeze 3D constructs
& beliefs into hyperspace.
inner thought: "The key is to not try
to describe anything to yourself or make any attempts
at reconciling the experience with what you think it
'might' be or 'should' be."
5 minutes 0 seconds
Now i'm starting to feel like the mind-shattering experience
and the fold in space/time are more remote and dream-like.
Visions become less sharp and more cartoon like
The view behind my closed eyes still sparkles with energy
and overlapping wave-like patters of color.
When i open them and look at the cat, she and the whole
scene looks like a fractal mosaic quilt made with thousands
of shades of brown, gray, blue and black. I notice the
music again and it's still much more detailed & rich
than usual but i can tell from hearing it's flow that
'time' has gone back to almost normal.
Cat in the darkness
inner thought "Whoa ... dude, they
say it's impossible to be prepared and i guess that's
correct. that knocked me off balance ... gotta find
a new level of zen to deal with such a transition. Gotta
lighten the load & not bring as much 'self' along because
it inevitably has to be discarded. Anything with gravity
or attachment will be stripped away ... remember, it's
10 minutes 0 seconds
100% back in my body, mind functioning normally, nausea
gone, ego reconfigured & feeling A-ok.
Energized, happy and HUMBLED by the experience!
Back to Earth! Still have a positive afterglow feeling.
That was a good intro to the DMT space.
I learned that i have a LOT to learn, which in this
context means a lot to Un-learn.
I thought nothing could shock me ... but that was
a shocking experience.
WAY WAY WAY beyond what i've ever been thru on large
amounts of LSD or mushrooms.
It happens so quickly that you have very little time
to adjust, and once you approach hyperspace, things
are happening so fast that it's very difficult to resist
'giving in' to your own amazement. A-maze-ment puts
you back into a maze of intellectual & logical comparisons.
Once you try this game you instantly loose, because
there are NO logical comparisons, no references to this
weirdness and no impossibilities.
To categorize anything in DMT space is to limit your
perception of it, which
pulls you 'away' from hyperspace back into attempts
to rationalize & interpret.
The only interpretation of hyperspace is the direct
wordless experience of it.
Words are only now in progress of development to describe
shit that's that alien, novel, beautiful and core-shattering.
it seems like dmt is more of a direct-access tool, and
less of a spiritual trip than other psychedelics.
More like being launched objectively 'there' in a cannon
and having to hit the ground running.
I'm absolutely not here to advise that anyone
attempt this, but i was and still am curious
about the reported DMT influenced hyperspatial and entity
experiences. I didn't see any entities, but i definitely
saw the 'front door' of DMT hyperspace, and even with
plenty of previous meditation, psychedelic and other
experiences i was still AWED and FLOORED by what it's
really like. I can't say it in words ...
I knocked on the door of hyperspace and whatever
answered the door
was so fantastically astounding that I tucked tail and
ran home to mommy!
It was not threatening .... but simply so profoundly
REAL and BEYOND ANYTHING EVER IMAGINED that it freaked
I like that .. it takes a lot to freak me out.
If there is a next time i will submit to infinity and
not Look Back!
Thanks, peace & Love Always,
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